Brigid Oxhorn CDX3

by Brigid Oxhorn

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  • Compact Disc (CD) + Digital Album

    These initial 15 copies are hand-assembled in an epic 3XCD binder (the CD "book and CD/DVD cases" were originally created for scholastic publications), making for a unique, collectible copy of the first 9 years of Ant Parade/No Milk solo recordings.

    Front cover art printed in color on cardstock provides a removable "wall decoration", back cover includes track listings, credits, and thank yous. Inside, CDs are nestled on the left, with music musings in the form of an essay on the right side, and a nook for the lyric/picture book.

    The forty four page lyric and picture collage book accompanies, documenting many performances and memorable poster art from 2007-2015. Printed in color on high-quality cardstock, and hand-bound.

    A more compact edition of this release will likely follow someday, but this one is virtually unbreakable, and certainly record shelf ready.

    Purchase includes immediate download of the digital files, and the book as a PDF file.

    Stay tuned, the next discography will be a 10XCD set for sure! ;)

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Solo recordings spanning nine years of tape to digital, heart to headphones, and ink blood sonic scrawlings of Brigid Oxhorn.

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released June 27, 2015

All tracks recorded, mixed, and mastered by Brigid Oxhorn EXCEPT::: "The Corn Has Ears, The Potatoes Have Eyes", and "Summer Fight Song", Both of which were mixed down from Ant Parade Tascam 4 track tapes by Todd Lynne.

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This Bandcamp site is both host to NFR release debuts, and also to some No Milk (founder of NFR) Record, CD, and Tape distribution.
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Track Name: Ant Parade - Despite Everything I Know
Despite Everything I Know


I'm sorry but I thought you were
Someone I knew from a long
Time ago and we'd both changed
But now I see
What you were
Talking about no one overheard
A single word it was a tidal wave
No one is safe

Did it have to be so long
And what are you holding onto
I know what it means
And you know what I believe

Cause I'm hoping to get strong
Despite everything I know
And you know how to be maybe
You know what it is to be free

Now that you see where I'm bound
And you feel mostly the same
But for a different place maybe
In time slowed down to you can hear
How we're all getting by without
And hoping to find
Don't let it weigh too
Heavy on you

Did it have to be so long
And what are you holding onto
I know what it means and
You know what I believe

Cause I'm hoping to get strong
Despite everything I know
And you know how to be
Maybe you know what it is to be free

It weighs on you
It weighs on you
It weighs on you
It weighs on you
Track Name: Ant Parade - Ax Of God
Ax of God (Original Take)

After all this time I can tell you
I think I have an aversion to being loved
Maybe I don't know how to let go
Or maybe I'm just not that tough

See the world changing all the time
But nothing ever changes fate
I'd like to hold you close again but I'm
Pretty sure it's too late
Track Name: Ant Parade - Storm Season
Storm Season


My mind is a hurricane
And I can start over again
But that doesn't mean I'll ever see
The same walls that block you and me
Forget your cost,
Your dues mistakes
Your writing arm and
The sounds you make
It doesn't mean
I'll ever breathe
Without the help of
Your machine

Stopping in splendor
To cherish forever
The way you hold my hand
I never wanted
To be so haunted
By your precise demand

My arms are
Delivered here
I've waited songs
I've painted years
It seems there's always
Challenge heat
I don't want to
Know defeat
Your eyes a glow
Your legs like steel
And when your lips curl
With all you feel
You'll see that storm
The blinding rain
Turn over silence for
Love or pain

Stopping in splendor
To cherish forever
The way you hold my hand
I never wanted to
Be so haunted
By your precise demand
Track Name: Ant Parade - The Corn Has Ears, The Potatoes Have Eyes
The Corn Has Ears, The Potatoes Have Eyes


I've been looking for
The right way to say
How much you mean
To me

Now all that breath
Through a hole in my chest
Make a mast of me
And sail across
The sea
Track Name: Ant Parade - Summer Fight Song
Summer Fight Song


Didn't take much to say
Anything that you want
Why can't you open your mouth
For a minute

You're thinking too much
Just can't let it out
And I holler cause
It's just the beginning

And besides why would you judge
Why oh why wouldn't you just
Sit back and listen
Oh boy, oh why do you
Have to judge
Why can't you just leave
Well enough alone
Youse need to change
What you know
Track Name: Ant Parade - You're Brave
You're Brave


You're brave cause you don't know
What'll happen where you go
you're afraid cause the lights stay
On all night in the city

Where you live when three years ago
There was no one except
People sleeping
In front of the courthouse
And the Hart line riders on Franklin St

I wanna meet you in my dreams
When I fall asleep I want to see what you see
The gardens open like the sea
The wind blows pens over
Again and again

Suddenly the air has changed
and I forget how hard it was
So many years spent on regret
And now it's all or nothing all the time

And do you really think that's a problem
Do you really think anything is
When I tell you that I love you
Do you know it's my love not his

There's a sadness in your voice
And I hear the same in mine
I know it's cause we know things
And there ain't no use in trying
Track Name: Ant Parade - Je Suis Stoned
Je Suis Stoned


Stay here again
Safe and all
The dreams you send
Will soon arrive

Through mountains
And rain
Is it easier
To forget

When I was you
When we were happy
the hopes
We would find

Didn't I
Didn't I

All that you are
All that you were
We're working
On a string
And keeping
Everything
We can

It's on
It's always on
Track Name: Ant Parade - Where Have You Been All Your Life?
Where Have You Been All Your Life?


Wear me out
I've been reckless forever
Burning both ends
And missing the moment
I'm trying to get by
Without leaning too hard
I don't know why
I can't make a new start

Every morning I want you I want you
You know I could never betray you
You've got time to hear what I'm saying
I wouldn't tell you if I didn't need to

I'm sorry that I'm no good to hold onto
There's too many things I can't control and if
You think you're living the life you've been handed
Then you need to think again

I'm counting on you now
Try and remember
Where we were
Back when we started
Would I ever give up
On what I promised
Knowing that's love
Or just being honest
Track Name: No Milk - The Revival Process
The Revival Process


Through a hole in my chest
Every day
I shake out weeks
Wishing they were years
And I'm finally starting
To make progress

A bird cloud wrestles
The wind off your face
"Unfasten the crows and
The clouds come crashing down"*

Like black pepper
Sifting through
The disappearing lawn
No matter how we nurse
The brittle chutes
We can't bring them back
This season

Still if you water
The promise I gave you
Last Autumn when everything
Was fruitful beyond belief
Something's bound to grow



*Lines 9-10 are borrowed from
the Mattea Harvey poem, "Bird Transfer"
Track Name: No Milk - Try Me
Try Me


I love the way that songs begin
I love the way they end
I want you to be more
Than a special friend
No use being so uptight
Because I'm alone
I would have told you times before
I've been so busy you know

Now that I have my life back
Do you see us on the same track
Should I stand up like I made it up
And take off before I get lost

The Autumn and the always wind
It's heat been blowing in my face
I'm sure you know my will is good
But will you ever know who I am

I'm shaken cause I've been distressed
Distracted and almost gave up
But if anything I know
I don't see that way now

Now that I have my life back
Do you see us on the same track
Do I stand up like I made it up
And take off before I get lost
Do you see enough to believe
In all we could be (as we or not no matter what)
I want you to tell me
Before you drag me along
For one more new song
Track Name: No Milk - Cage Perspective
Cage Perspective


Slow down you're
Beating yourself up
No one can
Save you now

So much has been
Cut out for you
Starting over
They adore you

What was I
Lead to believe
When you thought you could be
Close to me

And did you think
I was someone else
When you put me up
On your shelf

Slow down you're
Beating yourself up
No one can
Save you now

So much has been
Cut out for you
Starting over
They adore you

And now I wonder
Do you think I lied
When I promised
I would try

And I'm not saying
Above all else
What I need now
I'll keep to myself
Track Name: No Milk - EMT-V (Demo Version)
EMT-V (Demo Version)


I'll unwind before your eyes
And no one else can make it help

Such a beautiful letter
Such a beautiful friend
You're over-thinking everything
I think again

The last one told me
About your new life
What keeps you going
With so much sacrifice

I always thought I'd see you
In some ambulance
I always thought I'd see you
A somnambulist

With no time to
Relive the days
When you do
Escape the maze

Nightmares on pavement
You wish you could rewind
And right wrongs from the past week
As they stay in your mind

Still it's nothing
Compared to before
Being brokenhearted
And poor

I always thought I'd see you
In some ambulance
I always thought I'd see you
A somnambulist

With no time to
Stop and say hi
With nowhere to go
But for a ride
Track Name: No Milk - Hey
Hey


Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do

I need you to know
I'm ready to pick up and go
When you're not around
I don't know where I belong in this town

Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do

I know that it's the same
Anytime you try to make your name
There's always some clown
Who only wants to bring you down

Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do

If there's a reason why I should stay
Other than a chance to play
Let me know cause it would help
To know that I'm not here by myself

Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you I do
Hey I love you it's true
Track Name: No MIlk - Telephone Tones
Telephone Tones


I love it when you cut off my hands my only
Connection to you I want to be remembered by my
Touch it's true I want you to convince me
That it's gone so I can move on move on
I love it when you call out my name for shame
The beating of clocks on the walls of your mind
Are you keeping time or making mine crime
I want you to know that I'm fine just fine
I love it when you blame me for things I've never begun
I know it's a war because it's not won
Just replayed and relayed like when we were young
Before we knew how to keep score
Now it's your turn to tell what's been going on
What you couldn't yell or why you've been so long
I know there are reasons but I can't hold
On to you with all you do

Please I know that it's late I want you to help me
You see I'm alone here where we panicked
I know it's a joke I just don't get it
How can you give and never regret it
You're turning back time I think we're alright now
I wanted to say this for the record
It's never been easy and it never will be
Never for you or me

I'm giving you all that I can
I know you don't notice but I swear I am
It's something else you need I don't understand
I know you're no ordinary man
And I'm not easy to read I've been keeping busy
Watching the leaves and waiting for a chance
To run and break free of what this city has done for me
I love it when you replay the past
Because you're afraid we're moving too fast
And leave me on my own again and lastly
Something that I've known again you ask of me
But now it's your turn to know
And not to second guess the way you did before
It's not to impress me or anyone
I just want to hear I don't want to
Fear you now



Please I know that it's late I want you to help me
You see I'm alone here where we panicked
I know it's a joke I just don't get it
How can you give and never regret it
You're turning back time I think we're alright now
I wanted to say this for the record
It's never been easy and it never will be
Never for you or me
Track Name: No Milk - Collecting Vapors (Live At The Percolator)
Collecting Vapors (Live At The Percolator)


You've waited your whole life you'll wait some more
For whatever it is you're fighting for
And the rest is a question you asked of yourself
But you couldn't admit that you just needed help

When do I get to the bottom of this mess
My heart is broken and I don't have anywhere to go
I'm tired of calling everyone I know
What can I say anyways

Patience takes practice I'll give you my word
I'd do anything for you no matter what you heard
But I'm trying to remember what brought us here
Do you really want to I have to be clear

And if I screw it up at least you'll know I tried
And did everything I could at the time
But a new day is here now and I want you to see
What kind of effect you have on me

When do I get to the bottom of this mess
My heart is broken and I don't have anywhere to go
I'm tired of calling everyone I know
What can I say anyways
Track Name: No Milk - Demon's Day (Live At The Decimal Point)
Demon's Day (Live At The Decimal Point)

You're better prepared for anything now
No matter what the doctors tell you
You know it's nothing because you're ready to deal
With anything now that you're getting help
So why not just remember that there's nothing
That can harm you when you're
Standing here beside me
Feeling alright feeling alright

No one cares about what they can't see
And that does apply to you and me
Demons and daydreams it's all the same so
Why don't you read me my life story
Make me feel ashamed

Now that you're on your own for the first time
Even with my help I know there's
Nothing that can harm you
As much as you harm yourself
So let's turn off the box for the last time
It's nothing but bad news
And put on a record to make you feel better
I just want to help you get through

No one dares talk about what they can't see
And that does apply to you and me
Demons and daydreams it's all the same so
Why don't you read me my life story
Why don't you share some of my pain

You're better prepared for anything now
No matter what they say you know it's
Nothing because you're ready to deal with
Whatever comes your way
So why not just remember that there's
Nothing that can harm you when you're
Here standing here beside me
Feeling alright feeling alright

No one cares about what they can't see
And that does apply to you and me
Demons and daydreams it's all the same so
Why don't you read me my life story
Make me feel ashamed
Track Name: No Milk - Scratch Paper
Scratch Paper


Looking for someone to talk to
At least I don't have anyone to fight with
I'm wearing thin on giving in

But life is plenty and thank you for
Not being too heavy about how hard
It hurts to see you've been deceived

Oh I'm over bending and breaking
Could you please just see that I'm alright

I would do the same for you again
And I still wouldn't even think twice

I don't want to drag you down or
Make this harder than it has to be
Let's just say we tried

And if we can pick up where we left off
And make things work out I'd like to
Call it a new life

Oh I'm over bending and breaking
Could you please just see that I'm alright

I would do the same for you again
And I still wouldn't even think twice

Can you know and not let it go
Can you carry it all the way home

Do you really want to be here alone
Am I helping at all or do you wish you could

Just give up and start over
Are you scared for what you might lose
Or have you already seen these blues
Should I hold the phone?
Are you on your way?
Track Name: No Milk - Collecting Vapors
Collecting Vapors


You've waited your whole life you'll wait some more
For whatever it is you're fighting for
And the rest is a question you asked of yourself
But you couldn't admit that you just needed help

When do I get to the bottom of this mess
My heart is broken and I don't have anywhere to go
I'm tired of calling everyone I know
What can I say anyways

Patience takes practice I'll give you my word
I'd do anything for you no matter what you heard
But I'm trying to remember what brought us here
Do you really want to I have to be clear

And if I screw it up at least you'll know I tried
And did everything I could at the time
But a new day is here now and I want you to see
What kind of effect you have on me

When do I get to the bottom of this mess
My heart is broken and I don't have anywhere to go
I'm tired of calling everyone I know
What can I say anyways
Track Name: No Milk - Pocket Cancer
Pocket Cancer


Do you get lonely as ever
Riding downtown so many days
I know you've got a lot of big problems
That I can't save you from

Even though there's no solution
I want you to try like you owe it to me
I've seen enough people give up
On all the things that made them free

Believe in nothing
Believe in the ra-di-ooo
Believe in all the same things
And on and on and on and on

My time is tested
I don't know how I'm gonna get through
And leaving makes it feel like
I'm disappearing you

My lines are twisted like vines on a wooden
Fence growing over me
I want to explain it all better
But I can't say things clearly

Maybe I took a lot of wrong turns
And I don't know how to save you now
But how could I ever expect to
I want to be true to you somehow

Believe in nothing
Believe in the ra-di-ooo
Believe in all the same streets
And on and on and on and on

My time is tested
I don't know how I'm gonna get through
And leaving makes it feel like
I'm disappearing you
Track Name: No Milk - EMT-V
EMT-V


I'll unwind
Before your eyes
And no one else
Can make it help

Such a beautiful letter
Such a beautiful friend
You're over-thinking everything
I think again
The last one told me
About your new life
What keeps you going
With so much sacrifice

I always thought I'd see you
In some ambulance
I always thought I'd see you
A somnambulist
With no time to
Relive the days
When you do
Escape the maze

Nightmares on pavement
You wish you could rewind
And right wrongs from the past week
As they stay in your mind
Still it's nothing
Compared to before
Being brokenhearted
And poor

I always thought I'd see you
In some ambulance
I always thought I'd see you
A somnambulist
With no time to
Stop and say hi
With nowhere to go
But for a ride
Track Name: No Milk - Ax Of God-RMX
Ax Of God RMX


After all this time I can tell you
I think I have an aversion to being loved
Maybe I don't know how to let go
Or maybe I'm just not that tough

See the world changing all the time
But nothing ever changes fate
I'd like to hold you close again but I'm
Pretty sure it's too late
Track Name: No Milk - Clockwork
Clockwork


Why should I try
With a pit of fears by my side
Just know should I hide
I'll be easy to find

Someone's been calling me
Ringing endlessly
Knowing me like T.V.
Predictability

But I'm done for the day
Ready to hit the hay
Please don't get in my way
I'm eying the highway

I think I could crash somewhere
As in a couch to spare
Wouldn't you go no where
I haven't ever been there

What could I do
Would it come back to you
How do I get through
I'm telling you the truth

Someone said hi to me
It didn't feel comforting
Some kind of offering
Disguised as a greeting

I've been thinking of the past
Over the last few days
And wondering how we grew so far
Apart through this haze

When I see you now
I know I've counted the days
Just to meet you again
Just to be a good friend

All the elements have tried
They cant take us down
Not even our own spirits
When they hit the ground

And when I hear your voice
I can always turn around
Even if your eyes won't
Relay what you've found

When I saw it had been years
I knew I had to let go
But it's so hard
To erase what you know

I wanted to say hi
Ask you how it goes
I didn't want to tell you
How you hurt me so

Just forget it
I wish you peace
And I'm so thankful
For what you've done for me

You don't have to pretend
Things are what they used to be
If we're on the mend
Then I'd say let it be
Track Name: No Milk - King Fahrenheit
King Fahrenheit


How can it be I've never
Seen you before
No one had the
Guts to tell me
Or to knock on
My door

Can't explain
What caused such pain
I'll hold you in
An instant
But only here
In place of all fear
It's all gone in
This moment

Please be the one to tell me
When to move on
I've been waiting weeks
Just like you
Knowing what makes
Us strong

Here's to the night
Here's to no fights
I've never had
A good reason
To pick up and go
I hope now you know
I'd do just
About anything